Well this is awkward

I haven't posted in sooooo long. Partly because i have been busy, partly because i'm lazy and mainly because time has just zapped past so quickly. I'm already half way through my time in butchery and it's may! last time i checked i was still moping everyday about having left home and dwelling on regrets about the past year or so.
I think i have finally entered the realm of adulthood. All my time in the day is spent on working, eating and sleeping with the occasional spot of playing games.

My to do list is also growing longer and longer with every day and i have no way of really catching up with it. I have so many books which i've bought and are just lying around the floor waiting to be read. Me and steven haven't done the dishes properly in about a week now (i think longer), we just rinse off whatever we need at the time. There is both dirty and clean clothes discarded around the room, dust and paper building up where ever it can and soooo many other things which just haven't managed to find their own spot. I should really invest in some things to help organise the place, though the laundry basket i bought the other week has done very little to help, perhaps i need a third one.

At least i'm cooking dinner a little bit more, which is a start. I made lasagne which has lasted 3 days and a roast on the weekend which lasted 2. I got some little plastic (...OMG LIGHTENING...) containers because i had a genius idea to freeze a whole lot of meals in the weekend to consume over the week, another thing which hasn't ended up happening.

It REALLY doesn't help with steven being so god damn lazy either, i'm at least trying to sort our shit out. He is only interested in computer games and having 'his relaxation time' which isn't necessarily a bad thing, but when i barely see him and when i do he barely even looks at me or him just plain no doing anything to help around the place, it gets bloody annoying.
It's a struggle to even get him to serve up dinner after i've spent an hour or two cooking it. Goddamnit he even left out the left over lasagne AGAIN! so scratch what i said earlier, it only lasted 2 meals...... bloody waste.

I'm really having my doubts. I love him and he's a good friend, but that's about where it stops now. He's not keeping up with our agreement of me paying rent and him the food as i buy it all now. We don't even go out to do things. To be honest though, i don't think he has much money because he is doing shit at his job and now he's considering heading back to uni and working part time.
Sometimes i really think it's best if we go our own ways if he doesn't grow up very quickly. i feel more like his mother a lot of the time.

anyway i need a nap and have to finish a list of stuff i had planned to get done today.

Take care